Waiting for the sun. The last few months have been a long tedious exercise in patience. Loving & hating a lot of the experiences..but mostly choiceless I’m choosing to be silent.

I had a conversation with a friend. It didnt make any sense. She said something like she wants Love. I said somthing like just do your bit of living. she said she is an idealist. I said you might be an idiot. She said. I said. We are on the same boat. But the boat [...]

How to express this pain of stupidity. You think you are something but you arent. You think there is something, but there isnt. How to describe this numbness, this dumbness. you’re excited, in glee, happy from head to toe, all for nothing. It’s a mistake, lost in translation, lost in words, and in time. You [...]

This year on my blog I think Im opening up a bit too much. So far Ive been writing and keeping a lot of my personal life, well personal. Now I dont really think that I have a personal life anymore. wtf. So I know it’s going to be weird writing everything on this blog. [...]

As the year has almost ended, im thinking yet again, just like all the other years, how fast this one has gone by. So much has happened, yet so little. so much could happen and so much did happen. So i thought Id make a list of all the highs and lows of 2008. just [...]

It’s one of those days…when things are just about okay, but nothing seems to fit quiet right. There’s nothing to celebrate and nothing to mourn. It’s a sad happy feeling, everything is okay, but does not seem to matter, something is missing today. There’s no paradigm shift. Life is just what it is, what it’s [...]

Ive been like the rest of India watching Terror on Tv for the past few days, the line between fact & fiction, fear and anger has blurred. I see a lot of anger in myself and a lot of anger being thrown around. there is immense tension and great loss of life. Firstly my heart [...]

O BA MA! what can you say about Obama. Everyone is talking about Obama, is listening to Obama, praying for Obama, watching Obama and most importantly voting for Obama. He’s the Biggest thing ever. He’s like the next Michael jackson, He’s black-not quite, he’s white not quite, But He’s the biggest celebrity in the world, [...]

Pages of my life reveals itself like the undercurrent of my river that I so adored. Alone, in the nakedness of my innocence. I sat on her banks. I called her my mother. She was the only mother I ever knew, my only companion, my only friend. Even before I could utter words I Sat [...]

This time in my life is such a paradox. Im living out my life to the fullest, yet Im doing nothing at all, I am relatively at peace with myself, inspite of all the daily battles I wage. I am surrounded by people I love, yet none I can call my own, everything I need [...]

why this question?why this need to question?why this need to write about the need to question?

How much contemplating can a man do? how greedy can a man really get? nothing much to say about today. went out walking, ate in KFC, drank some coffee in Starbucks, sat around, alone, looking out of the window overlooking the bus stop. realise people all over the world board busses. thoughts of my mumbai [...]

The only feeling I can think of these days is gratitude. More than just a feeling it’s become a way of living for me. Im not even sure if its a feeling but Im sure whatever Im going through us not my doing. so I have absolutely no power or control over it & Im [...]

The best moments in your life are disguised as the worst moments of your life. But they’re also always the most intense moments of your life. within these moments do you really live and learn to live. These are the moments that change your life and on your deathbed these are the moments that you [...]

Note to self- Live. Continue living as if I’m alive. Right now there is no way for me to know whether I’m alive or to what extent I’m alive. I’m breathing all right. I can walk, I talk. I look at myself in the mirror. Is this proof enough of my being alive. I slept, [...]

why this question?why this need to question?why this need to write about the need to question?

I was Shive. Seated in Lotus position. My arms resting on my knees, my spine aligned straight. sitting, just sitting, watching the energy rise in my body & slowly I was shiva, matted locks on my head, I attained the body consciousness of shiva. Silent & resilient in my consciousnesss I was shiva-in physicality & [...]

I havent done anything that I regret. The whole experience is being experienced. love & cherish. I met her whose very being brings morning into my nights. intoxicating, delicate, a whiff of wind can whither away her presence. light, soft. I’ve gone through so many ups & downs the last few days. Ive hated & [...]

this world has so many people.

hey dude,so where r u at the moment? and when r u plannin to go to chin?the history ques is if u were a saint in the present day wat would ur teaching be?plz give me a good ans so that the teacher gets impressed and gives me extra marks… plz dude i need the [...]

1. Dined with Amir khan, his wife & Kunal kapoor at amir’s place. ( was excited but nobody seemed to care..so maybe its not sucha big deal)2. within less than a week hung out with jackie shroff, Anil kapoor, jugal hansraj, met up with Anupam kher, Ashutosh gowariker, Meghna Ghai (subhash Ghais daughter) and many [...]

1. looking fr a 1bhk. gota beach view place..12 grand rent..tried to nego fr 11 grand…brokers were fuckin arnd..i askd them to take a hike. 2. workin on a short film calld “jehad” gota guy ready to put in sum money n act as the lead. he gave me shit as hes a christian and [...]

So I bought myself a nice video camera. just one of those handy cameras…nothing fancy…n setout to capture mumbai…on a cycle…nahinn…ths ws jus fr style maroing…cool cycle…my roomies’ frnd bought it…1500…gd naaa So finally after all the style maroing I set out on one of mumbai’s more favoured transports…BUS>>>>>>> so like the buddhaa..i set out…into [...]

Yeah!! Ive been reading a lot of blogs of late, of people I dont know and tht of people I thought I knew, ordinary people with extraordinary thoughts aboutt everything, great skills as writers, where have these people been hiding for so long, Ive been writing for loong loong time and won writing contests etc [...]

it’s unnerving to write…about myself..somethng ppl can read…anyone on the net..ppl i knw..i dnt knww….Hw much cn i reveal?bout myself…hw much cn i hide…my secrets…i dunno…ths is my first blog…so here goes 3:46 november 27th afternoon 2005. its been a boring day like everyother for the past couple yrs of my life…the passion with which [...]